Messages, I'm tempted - but I got to give it up.

Sometimes I think that I'd "have less heartache" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be cool" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "live a little" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "get it now" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "have many" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "win her heart" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "not lose her" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "never be alone" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "have my fun" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be different" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be more daring" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be a man" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be smarter" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "grow up" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be real" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be like her" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "get in her" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "conquer it" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be strong" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

Sometimes I think that I'd "be happier" if I hadn't set these standards and these boundaries and these ideals.

But really, I know I wouldn't.
I couldn't. I shouldn't.

And I'm not sorry.